Now What?

As you know, Tyler and I (and Wyatt) have been living this Army life for about two years now. We've loved it, we've hated it, and we've really, really hated it. But now, we've come almost full circle to loving it again. A few short months ago, we (mostly Tyler, but when a husband is miserable in his job, his wife feels the pain) were at the peak of our unhappiness with the military and couldn't think of anything better than the day some super important person would sign that piece of paper saying that we were no longer bound to this lifestyle. And July 7th marked the day that one year from now, we would be able to get that very paper signed. The way this all works is that one year prior to when your commitment to the Army is up, you are able to "drop your papers" as they say, basically stating that in one year we no longer want to be in the Army and the ball is set rolling on your honorable discharge.

Well, we had dropped our papers and started the countdown. We are now down to 10 months until the day we'd be able to leave Fort Sill (we could move home on terminal leave in May with the days that Tyler has saved up) but now we're not so sure.

Obviously, I would LOVE to be back in Texas, close to my family and the majority of my friends. But I have lots of friends here now, too, and will have many more wherever the Army may take us next. And while several aspects of this life aren't ideal, there's equally as many that are pretty terrific. We've heard horror stories of staying in and horror stories of getting out, we've envisioned scenarios of what our life may be like either way, we've weighed the pros and cons... and we have no clue what we want to do.

It's not like we have to know tomorrow, but if the next 10 months go by as quickly as the last, then we need to have some idea about what will happen next. And it's a really, really, REALLY tough decision.

Here's where we stand...

You can't beat the benefits - this includes the fact that our housing and utilities are paid for, the health insurance (it cost us exactly $0 to have Wyatt), I would never have to work a day in my life and could stay home and raise my children (the most ideal situation I can think of), and the rate at which Tyler would promote in the Army is much faster than that in the civilian world. So basically, a lot of it revolves around money, but in that we would be earning more than enough to live off of while the military pays the majority of our bills, we are all taken care of healthwise, and my kids aren't spending their entire childhood in daycare. Not to mention, we would see the country, maybe a few other parts of the world and meet lots of great people, as evidenced by how many truly wonderful friends I've made in two short years.

On the other hand, we would likely never again be as close to home as we are now, and the longer we stay in the more we risk deployment and separation. And we'd have to move our kids around a lot. There are surely a few other downfalls, but those are the two that would most affect our decision.

So what do we do?! Yeah, we don't know. We'll probably spend the next 10 months going back and forth, wondering what's best for our family, but how will we really know til we do it? And when I'm stuck by myself, mid-deployment, with two kids, will I be wishing we'd gotten out? Or when we move back to Texas to be close to home and we're living off of a teacher's and a cop's salaries wishing someone would help us pay our mortgage will I wish we'd stayed in?? I don't know. And everyone has a different story.

As of right now, our paperwork is turned in and the countdown is still ticking. But we can change our minds at any time. So here's to hoping we make the right decision, whatever that may be...

And just for grins, here's a couple pictures of Wyatt and his soon to be Jersey girl, whose parents just made the decision to get out of the Army and are headed back home as we speak!